December 17, 2009
i have prayed and cried and cried and prayed over my relationship with my ex boyfriend to be restored...it's been going on for almost 3 months now. i was so fearful that it wouldn't happen. i couldn't let go and let God. sunday before going into church, i broke down in tears yet again, unable to even catch my breath. i asked for reconciliation and for God to guide me. "please God! tell me what you want me to do and i'll do anything!" i cleaned my face up and while in church, i kept having these memories of a former friend from a couple of years ago and a dispute we had. i admit that i was not a good friend to her which is why we no longer speak. for a long time, i tried to justify my actions but when i came down to it, i was ashamed, and i never apologized. i always thought that since i was really sorry that was enough, but somehow, for me, it wasn't. so what was God telling me to do?? ask forgiveness from her. i was terrified to do so, but i knew it would feel better somehow. as soon as i got home, i sat down and wrote her a long email as i don't have her number anymore and if i called she may not give me a chance to speak. i read and re-read it, then hit that send button. and a thousand pounds of weight left my heart right then. she has not responded and that's okay because she knows i am sorry. since then, people i have not spoken to in years have contacted me and said the most wonderful things, and since asking for that forgiveness my fear of my relationship not being reconciled has gone away. i now have no fear that it will happen! that one thing...that one action kept me from letting my faith completely fill my heart. once i got rid of that weight, i honestly feel like i opened a window and let the light in. praise GOD for that freedom!!! praise God for that forgiveness!! now, bring on the reconciliation!!!;-)
December 17, 2009
Praise God and Thank you for your prayers. Wallace made it thru the surgery...he still has a long wait in ICU to recover. the doctors said as long as he contracts no infections, he should recover well. please continue to pray for him. thank you again.
December 17, 2009
God answers my prayers daily, and i'm ashamed because i don't always acknowledge it. i get so wrapped up in my needs and wants and what hasn't gone my way, that i don't stop to think about the blessings. i thank God for my family, two parents that love me dearly, grandparents that love me, aunts, uncles, cousins, friends that all love me. i thank God for being able to still have a place to work and live and food on the table and clothes on my back. i thank God for being able to laugh and cry and pray. i thank God for giving my dad the dream he's wanted for so long by fixing my pawpaw's truck...my dad cried today because he was so happy that he could hear his dad's truck run...if my paw paw was living now, he'd be so proud, and my dad knows that. i thank God for the tv i'm watching and the computer i'm able to use at this moment. i thank God that he has touched my ex boyfriend's heart and brought him from atheism to christianity. i thank God for all of you prayer warriors...you are a blessing.
December 17, 2009
God truly does work miracles. I have been praying so long and so hard for my ex-boyfriend, an atheist, to find God. Last night, I spoke with my ex and he told me that he turned his life over to Christ. I have never been so happy! Please Please Please continue to pray for the second part of my miracle...continue to pray that if it is God's will, that Luan will now find his way back to me...that our Romantic relationship be restored, and this time that it will be better than it ever was before. Thank God for everything....He loves us so much!
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